Friday, 4 October 2013

Complimentary Compliments

Why is that most people find it so difficult to accept a compliment?

I think it's because you don't ever want to sound full of yourself but it's often like you think that you don't deserve people to say nice things to you but you know what's more difficult? Giving someone a compliment and having them reject it

"You look really nice today" - "No I don't" Oh ok where am I meant to go with that? 

I have some advice for all you compliment haters, just say thanks. Even if you don't believe that person, even if you think you look like crap, just smile and say thanks and remember it! Because when you are feeling your lowest, you just have to remember the times that someone paid you a compliment and how it made you feel good and then pay that compliment forward. Next time you see someone with a nice outfit on or next time someone comes up with a great idea tell them and pass the love around!!

Compliment my fashion, my blog posts, my inability to be a serious drinker or anything you like and I'll be a happy bunny!!


Thursday, 3 October 2013

ASOS October Wishlist




I absolutely love clothes shopping but with a full time job and living in the countryside sometimes getting to the shops is too much of a mission so ASOS is the perfect solution for this. Their clothes are absolutely lovely, often very affordable and fill half of my wardrobe.

The embellished dress is very pretty but I'm not sure where I will have an opportunity to wear it (which doesn't stop me very often). The jacket is really different and also one I'm not sure I could pull off!! These shoes look really comfortable and look like something that I could wear to work as they aren't too high.

I want, want, want!!!

Monday, 30 September 2013

What's In My Makeup Bag - September 2013

I'm a nosy beggar so love seeing what other people have in their handbags or use on their face. There must be some other people out there who love this so I thought I would give you an insight into what I'm currently using (Disclaimer: I am no makeup genius, I just slap it on!!)


MAYBELLINE BABY LIPS CLEAR LIP BALM - Purchased this in Tesco just before I went on holiday as I hate chapped lips and I knew that the sun and sea air would dry them out. Absolutely love this product, its not too tacky and I like the packaging

MAXFACTOR MIRACLE TOUCH LIQUID ILLUSION FOUNDATION IN CREAM IVORY - Hate the texture of this product but love the coverage, it feels like show makeup from when I used to dance which feels wet and really heavy on the skin. This is now way too light for my skin tone after my tanning sessions in Cyprus but I still use it under my darker powder as it makes my makeup stay in place all day

RIMMEL WAKE ME UP CONCEALER IN IVORY - I recently did a full review on this product here but I am now nearly out of this much loved product (insert sad face here)

MAYBELLINE PRESSED POWDER IN SOFT HONEY - This was ridiculously orange on me before but is now the perfect colour, it's a bit of a "meh" product i.e. I don't really care about it either way but it does the job

RIMMEL EXAGGERATE EYE LINER IN 100% BLACK - I don't like this eyeliner, well I do, but not for the use that I wanted it. It reminds me much more of a liquid eyeliner and I find it much harsher than other pencil liners I have used before.

RIMMEL LASTING FINISH LIPSTICK IN ALARM - This is my favourite lipstick colour and I actually own three of this exact shade, one for my makeup bag, one for my handbag and one for my drawer at work. It instantly picks me up and makes me feel sexy, confident and smartens up every outfit

BOURJOIS BRONZING POWDER - Love this product, does exactly what I think it should and this product has lasted ages

BOURJOIS BLUSHER IN ROSE FRISSON - Same for this product, thumbs up Bourjois!!

MAYBELLINE MASTER DRAMA KOHL LINER IN ULTRA BLACK - I have been using this liquid eyeliner since I was about 15 (not this exact one, just this brand). It does exactly what I want it to and it will take a lot to convert me from this one.

TOPSHOP CREAM HIGHLIGHTER - Did a review on this one before here but after reading a few more beauty blogs I actually know how to use a highlighter!!

MAXFACTOR FALSE LASH EFFECT MASCARA IN BLACK BROWN - I didn't realise that this wasn't black until like the 4th time I used this. I normally pick black but I like that this is more subtle and slightly more grownup

Sunday, 29 September 2013

Independent Women?

I love living in Suffolk, especially when you drive past an old drunk man on a child's bicycle at 10am on a Sunday morning and he then gives you the finger. I have never wanted to run someone over so much in my life!

Sunday is spinning day and I had a really great class today (absolutely knackering but it actually makes me feel like I have accomplished something). Good luck to those people who were completing a four hour spinathon in aid of MENCAP, I struggle through 45 minutes I have no idea how they are going to do it but it's for a really great cause, so well done them!!

Something struck me today during spinning, what the hell happened to independent women? Destiny's Child sang all about being independent, Charlie's Angels kicked arse and in spinning today a group of 10 women couldn't even count down from 8 loud enough to be heard over some moderately loud music. It was faintly embarrassing to be honest. Each woman felt too self conscious to count out loud when they were sweaty and working out in an enclosed room, who was there to judge them? I didn't get it so there I was happily shouting away numbers and when no one else joined did I feel embarrassed? No not really.

I used to be that girl who was too scared to ask anyone anything or speak out but I was sixteen years old. These were beautiful, grown up, successful women and it makes me sad that they were that conscious of their own voice. Luckily the instructor pulled it out of them (mainly by making us continue in low squat which is ridiculously hard when he thought we were too quiet!!) and I hope that experience made them care a bit less, because in all seriousness who cares? And to prove that here is me looking sweaty with no makeup for everyone to see!!!


Saturday, 28 September 2013

Bel and Dragon Cookham

I know if I say Cyprus one more time you are probably going to reach through your laptop and slap me but bear with, I will probably only mention it about a million times more and then I'm done I promise. On the Tuesday before we went, my parents drove me and my sister to Cookham which is where my Uncle lives and works. Its a beautiful little place on the Thames and only 30 mins from London so a great little place if not a tad expensive (Want a 2 bedroom semi detached house with a garden the size of a postage stamp? Do you have £750k? No? Then maybe try Lowestoft)

We had a lovely evening meal at the Bel and Dragon on the high street in Cookham and it was one of the tastiest meals I have ever had. The Bel and Dragon is technically a chain restaurant with restaurants in Windsor and Reading but it really doesn't have the feel of one. The decor is immaculate and looks like the interior of one of one of the many pictures I pin on Pinterest (if you don't follow me then check me out here)


The food was really great and the wine was lovely. When I normally drink rose, I have to put lemonade in it as it's too acidic but it was very drinkable (i.e. too drinkable and got a little rowdy). I have lots of rubbish Iphone pictures of absolutely lovely food; I had red pepper soup, roasted chicken and then caramelised peaches with cointreau and raspberry ripple icecream. No wonder I need to go on a diet.


See doesn't it look delicious? My sister had lobster for the first time which as you can imagine ensued in the hilarity of taking pictures with half a lobster shell, you can't take us anywhere!! The tables are all painted in blackboard paint and they have chalks supplied which I think is meant to be for children but also meant that we drew rubbish pictures of hearts and dragonflies and left messages for the waitresses. All in all a fully enjoyable meal!!


Friday, 27 September 2013

Goodbye Cyprus

Boohoo holiday is over for this year and I'm sad to see it go! As I write this (2 days ago now :() I am half way through the plane journey back and feeling very uncomfortable. Why are the seats so bloody tiny?!?! I feel like I would fit if I didn't have any arms but I do so I feel like I am constantly in the personal space of the poor bloke next to me.

I also wish I didn't have eardrums, not only for the fact that they really hurt but then I also wouldn't be able to hear the child that has been screaming for the past two hours. I understand that they can't help it, they are kids etc. and I would scream too if I was stuck in the tiny space between someone else's lap and the seat in front but it doesn't make it any more fun to listen to.

Is it just me or did you think that flight attendants were meant to be able to apply makeup well? Not the case for Mandy, the very harrowed looking Thomas Cook attendant. I have never seen so much eyeliner on one person in my life and I went through a stage of being proper emo as a teenager (I had the fringe and everything)

And the flight seems a million times longer than the flight out there. Maybe it's because I'm leaving the sun behind but I feel very grumpy!! I wish I had the superpower where I could just transport to places or be like Harry Potter and be able to Disapparate to hot climates. I mean I know Harry was fighting Voldemort but I really feel like wizards would go on more holidays.

So now I have been back for a little while, I feel ready to embrace Autumn but that doesn't mean I don't miss this view...



Thursday, 26 September 2013

Return of the Fatty

So I have taken an unscheduled hiatus from the blog world. To be honest I knew September would be a difficult one with the holiday, holiday preparations, friends leaving for uni, friends leaving to have babies, going to the gym and work but to be honest the main thing holding me back from writing was me. Blogging had become a pressure, a pressure I felt I couldn't live up to. To say I was disappointed in myself is an understatement, I had worked so hard to gain followers, to interact with people, to sponsor blogs I love, to participate in giveaways and start to put money into my little part of the internet and then I gave it all away! Who's going to keep coming if you have nothing to say?

I started to struggle with the fact that no one was commenting, days with minimal page views were bad ones and to be honest I started to doubt myself. It's been a while since I doubted myself but I could feel that all too familiar feeling of confusion creeping up on me. It felt like I was in high school again, not sure where I belonged and caring too much if people liked me. Who was I to put my world on the world wide web and demand that people take note and listen to me? My life is uninteresting. It revolves mainly around food, work and sleep. I don't go to fancy parties, I don't even go out that often, I don't have a boyfriend or anyone that is even remotely interested!

But that's not the reason I do it. I love the comments I get, I love the interaction between people I would never have known existed before, I love writing. I now realise "so what?" So what if I don't blog everyday? So what if someone disagrees with my opinion? So what if I don't lead a busy interesting life? General advice is that your blog must be about something; travelling, makeup, craft, being a mummy but that's not true. I read lots of blogs and not because of what they are for but for the person that wrote them. The blogs I enjoy the most are those with personality and I have bucket loads of that. I have a voice I want to share and a passion for sharing it so no promises, just a desire to write and be me



Monday, 9 September 2013

Ramblings about Life, Laziness & Packing

I am rubbish at packing!!

Cyprus is in 8 days and so far all I have done is checked I know where my passport is.

How the heck do you know what to take? How much is enough and how much is too much? 

My sister has been laying things out, taking pictures of outfits and has brought enough toiletries to drown in (luckily I am sharing in all the sun cream, hairspray and dry shampoo) so far I've flicked through my wardrobe and thought about what might be sensible. I am such a procrastinator, I will put off any task I don't want to do for as long as possible

I'm also feeling pretty lazy, I went spinning yesterday but didn't go the gym tonight. Weight loss is pretty slow which while I try to not worry and be sensible about it, I do find it disheartening. I think I might start Weight Watchers after my holiday and hopefully this won't be another task that I just put off.

Something that won't be put off is the start of Autumn. You can feel the chill in the air when you wake up and I can't wait for the time I can wear boots, tights and chunky cardigans such as these...

ASOS Fred Perry Cardigan


Any tips for successful packing? What are you most looking forward to about Autumn? 

Sunday, 8 September 2013

Blogging about not Blogging

So you may have noticed that I have been blogging AWOL for the past week and it wasn't that I didn't have things to say it was rather the fact that I didn't know how to say what I actually wanted to say so I thought it was better to stay silent!!

This week has been an .... interesting one I think is how I would describe it. It has gone by in the blink of an eye yet at the same time so much seems to have changed that I don't know how to process it.

My friend had her last day at work before having her baby and not having her there to support me and listen to my bitching and moaning is going to be really hard. I cried a little as I waved goodbye to her after piling her ridiculous amount of presents into her car because I don't know what I'm going to do without her but on a positive note I can't wait to meet her little one!!

One of my other friends has gone back to university for the new year and it's also really sad to see her go. We had lost contact since school but its been really great this year getting back to know her. She has become the confident person I always knew she could be at high school and it's great seeing her as a grown up. High school is not something I want to go back to but I'm really glad I have her from that time! I'm going to miss having her around but she'll only be at the end of a phone call

Also celebrating my friend starting her teacher training course and I am very proud of her. I can't imagine any of us as true grown ups but this is one step towards that!! 

I guess I just thought I would give you all an update as to what has been going on and I'm back before I go away again to Cyprus, major excited, so I leave you with a stupid selfie as I have no proper pictures


Saturday, 7 September 2013

Snail Mail Collective - August

I love receiving packages in the post and to be honest who doesn't so I think it was a lovely idea of Melyssa @ The Nectar Collective and Chelsea @ Lost in Travels to think up and organise the "Snail Mail Collective" Basically you sign up and there is a theme and you get paired up with someone from around the world to chat with, find out about and then buy them a small gift.

August's theme was "Under the Sea" and I was paired up with the lovely Carlisa @ Something Infinitely Interesting. She lives in Dallas in Texas but was originally from Florida so instantly I'm jealous of that childhood proximity to Mickey Mouse but really she was the sweetest girl I could ever imagine to be paired up with for my first swap. It was so nice finding things out about a person that I would probably never even know existed without this.

The other day I received her package which had me squealing like a small child, I absolutely love it!!!

  

I love the two colours of nail polish she has got me (perfect for my holiday to Cyprus in 11 days - way too excited!!), the candles smell great and the little plaque that says "Snail Mail" on it is so sweet. I love tying people's handwritting up to their personality and her's is so much neater than mine. I hope she receives my package soon as I really hope she likes it!!!

I really enjoyed joining in and have done the same this month. Today is the last day for sign ups so head over to Melyssa or Chelsea's blog to read the rules and sign up if you are interested.

Thank you so much Carlisa!!!

Sunday, 1 September 2013

Sunday Spinning

My legs are literally killing me!! Whoever thought that signing up for a spinning class after only having been working out for just over a week is an idiot!

If you have never tried spinning I would actually totally recommend it!! The calories you burn is crazy, a person of my weight doing 45 minutes of spinning can burn approx 700 kcals. The sweat is literally dripping of you within minutes (attractive I know) and you can push yourself as hard as you want. There were times when I thought that I maybe could have gone faster or had a higher resistance but for my first time I really just wanted to get to the end of the class without passing out!!!

It was literally one of the most physically difficult things I have ever done but I feel so good about myself and I think I'll be doing it all again next week. The ladies in the class when I first turned up were very helpful, letting me know how to adjust my bike and making sure that I had water and it was really nice to feel supported. Tomorrow night I have another class, this one is called "Jump Fight Mash Up" and I'm slightly scared!!

Yes this is the same picture from Ginger @ The Gym, I'm being lazy



Saturday, 31 August 2013

How to Not Get With Randomers

I have got a little behind on my blogging duties, work has taken up most of my day and then combine that with trips to the gym and trying to make the most of the dying days of the summer and blogging has been a little bit sidetracked (I have over 600 blog posts to read so if you get random comments on blog posts that are weeks old, sorry I'm not creeping I'm just a bit late to the game)

One of my besties is going back to uni at the end of next week so we decided to hit Norwich and paint the town red last night so feeling slightly delicate today.


In case you don't know me I'm a bit of a flirt and a bit might be a bit of an understatement, so I think I need some new rules for clubbing to get me out of trouble!

Stop smiling at random strangers - if there are random guys dancing in the middle of an empty dancefloor don't laugh and not expect them to come over and introduce themselves. However if step one fails move onto step two...

Don't engage said random strangers in conversation - they are drunk, you are drunk, it will not end well. They will also entice you into dancing...

Failed at this step too? OK so now you are dancing in the middle of an embarrassingly empty dancefloor after you have just downed a double vodka and lemonade, things are getting a little sketchy. Afore mentioned random guys start to "impress" you with their Inbetweener style dance moves and one mentions that he deserves a hug.

Don't hug random strangers - as you can probably guess failed at this one too!! Which leads to the final stage of getting with randoms, getting with them and they then casually inviting you back to their hotel room.

This happened not once but twice, with bloody friends. What is wrong with me?!?

Monday, 26 August 2013

Things I Have Learnt This Bank Holiday Weekend

Wasp stings bloody hurt - I know that the general consensus of how to deal with wasps is to stay calm and they will leave you alone, well that would be fine if people around me weren't losing their minds about a striped flying thing that's like 5cm long. Dad hit it with a fly squat in mid flight, it flew under the table and stung the first fleshy thing it could find which happened to be my knee. To say I swore was an understatement and it still really hurts and has gone all red, hot and blotchy... attractive

Working out without eating before hand is bad news - Today was my third day at the gym and because I am not a morning person I didn't eat before I went. Cue me feeling super sick and had really bad cramps in my legs for the whole time on the cross trainer - never again! I also worked out on the rowing machine next to Anthony Ogogo, who if you didn't know is an Olympic Medal winning boxer!! I have no idea how he can row soo fast, it was ridiculous. I then tweeted to this effect and he only bloody retweeted it!! So there I was squealing because an Olympian retweeted me while I ate Belgian waffles!!

Shaping your own eyebrows is relatively easy - Because of my newly lightened hair my eyebrows have become a very strong feature on my face, too strong I think so I decided it was time to get rid of the bushy caterpillars! So I followed this tutorial which was a really helpful way to not overdo the plucking as I don't want them too thin as that would look even more stupid!!

I am jealous of Jenifer Aniston's body - Went to watch "We're the Millers" today with my sister and it was bloody hilarious. She had to cover my mouth at one point as I was laughing too loud, I'm embarrassing like that!! But when I saw Jenifer Aniston's body it was like bloody hell!! I wish I had that body now, let alone when I'm her age, goal in mind!

My name is more of a pain than I ever thought possible - So my mum's friend is an absolute diamond and waited in line and brought me and all my siblings Coca Cola bottles with our names on the labels. However she had to prove that I was a person as it's a brand name so she had to look me up on Facebook to prove that she wasn't trying to advertise another company!!


Beauty Review - Rimmel Wake Me Up Concealer


So I am writing this post on a bank holiday Monday before going to the gym, what have I become? I never thought those words would come out of my mouth but here I am and I feel good about it. So what I've only lost a pound this week? I'm not bitter about it at all (OK maybe I am a bit but when I think realistically I know that I didn't really expect much more!!)

One side effect of the gym is that I am bloody knackered and a side effect of this is the massive black circles under my eyes, so to hide the fact that I am finding this hard concealer is required. 

I brought the Rimmel Wake Me Up Concealer in Ivory earlier this week from Tesco (£5.50). My trusty Bourjouis concealer had been running out for a while and I haven't had a chance to go somewhere like Boots to buy some more so supermarkets are my only beauty hope at the moment!!

The colour is very good for my skin tone and I find it easily blendable. It has good coverage for about 5-6 hours however I do find the consistency quite gloopy to start off with when you first apply to the skin. I just dab a little on my blemishes and then a gentle smear under each eye and then blend with my fingers. I would recommend this product if you are looking for something quite inexpensive that does the job 

Sunday, 25 August 2013

Confessions of a Shopaholic Tag

I was tagged in the "Confessions of a Shopaholic" tag by the wonderful Hannah Lucy over at the Hannah Lucy Diaries so I thought I would join in and let you into all the saucy details about my shopping habits!




1. Would you consider yourself a shopaholic? Unfortunately yes! I have so many clothes that it could be considered ridiculous by some. I love shopping, I love having new things, they don't have to be expensive but I just love having stuff!

2. How would you classify your style? I would classify my style as inappropriate!! Nah just kidding but if the weather is hot I'll be wearing a jumper, if it's cold a dress, too casual, too dressed up, yeah I'm that girl! I have a lot of dresses and lot of skirts, I love printed trousers and see through blouses, just a mix of whatever makes me feel happy

3. What store can you not leave without buying at least one thing? Either New Look or River Island. If I have an outfit on and doesn't include something from one of these shops I'm doing well

4. Where do you find the best deals? I do a lot of online shopping and find I get my best deals on ASOS but I really hate sale shopping so it won't be in the sales

5. Do you have a "go to" shopping outfit? Linking back to my inappropriate confession, it will be anything that's really difficult to get out of with a million layers. I went shopping earlier this month and wore a tiny halterneck dress that was so difficult to get in and out of

6.What is your guilty pleasure? (not including beauty products) My guilty pleasure is probably black high heels. Most people would look at them and say they are all the same but they all look beautiful and I'm constantly buying more!!

7. What is one staple clothing piece you can't live without? It would either be leggings or black cardigans both of which I have lots of

 8. What is a trend you hope never goes out of style? I hope that midi skirts never go out of fashion. I brought my first one a couple of months ago and now I have 4 (two of them are exactly the same but just different colours, I'm obsessed!!)

9. What trend did you love that passed away too quickly? I loved printed wide leg trousers but I now can't seem to find them anywhere, I have to ration wearing the pair that I have as I don't want to break them

10. Who is your fashion icon? I don't really have a fashion icon to be honest, most women in the media are too skinny for me to be able to pull off their style and I like to wear what I'm comfortable in. That doesn't mean that I don't love over women's styles or that I do anything different from the normal everyday person!!

Saturday, 24 August 2013

Ginger at the Gym


You might have noticed something new about me in this picture (although I have noticed that I always have the same facial expression in every picture!!), it might be the fact that instead of red hair I now have a weird combination of orangey yellow hair with dark brown roots. I would try to convince you that this was intentional but I would be lying to you!!

I stripped my hair as I want to ombre it and it's really hard to dye red hair. This is meant to be my natural hair colour. I'm 99% sure I don't remember this ever being my hair colour but you never know!! I just stood in the shower and laughed because if not I probably would have cried!

However everyone has been really complimentary about it and says that it suits me more than red hair, so I don't know what to do now!! Either they are being nice, they have really bad taste in hair or it's not as bad as I think it is. My sister absolutely hates it but I'm not sure. I have to wait for 2 weeks to dye it again so I will see if I get used to it and I might even keep it!! I think it's my dark eyebrows that I find the most difficult to get used to.

This picture isn't the most flattering as I had just got back from my first ever gym session. My stomach muscles are killing me and the cross trainer is not my friend (boobs and an up and down motion = not good!!) But I'm really enjoying it and I never thought I would. I have already been this morning and just feel like I have accomplished something

What's your verdict on the hair colour? What do you enjoy most about exercising?



Wednesday, 21 August 2013

See Through Shirts & Snooker


In case you haven't noticed I love a bit of alliteration, I think it's my high school English coming out to play! I meant to write this post last night but by the time I got home it was already pretty late and I was too sleepy.

It's crazy how quickly time flies, last time I saw some of the friends I saw last night was when I was in high school. It makes me feel old, super duper old!! It also doesn't help going out and seeing a group of girls that look about twelve, they were actually sixteen. I miss that time of taking a million pictures of everything that happens in your life, of wearing too much eye makeup, of singing and dancing to Demi Lovato (well it was probably Avril Lavigne when I was that age). I don't miss the fact that I felt like I constantly had to impress people, that I was always the chubby girl, that I had to dress up for every occasion. Last night I wore a blouse that was much more see through than I actually thought, didn't even notice!

On another point I am rubbish at pool, didn't realise that you actually have to look where you want the ball to go and the ball you want to hit. I am no good at angles either!!

Sunday, 18 August 2013

Exercising Tips from a Fatty


This little chubba is how I feel at the moment and I seriously need to do something about it. It's exactly one month until I wear a swimsuit in Cyprus sun and I'm a little bit worried that someone is going to attempt to harpoon the whale. So I have one exercising tip that I have learnt so far:

Exercise in something that makes you feel hideous

Make sure you can see your thighs wobble, your stomach rolls. Make sure you know that your back fat is wobbling and make sure that the horrible bit that is just above your boobs is visible because then you have a constant reminder as to why you are doing this to yourself. I am not an exercising fan and because I'm carrying that extra weight I find it hard so tonight looking like crap really made me keep going.

Just a reminder that I am offering FREE Guest Post spots in September. You don't have to be a blogger, you can be a friend or follower who just wants to pop in and have a little chat. Email me (toyotasmith92@gmail.com) or leave a comment!!

Giveaway + Guest Post

Sorry I have been a little quiet this weekend, brought a new bed and basically spent most of this weekend proving that I'm rubbish at DIY

I know I'm a little late wishing the beautiful Autumn @ The Unreal Life a Happy Birthday but my laptop had been put up and I don't know how to copy and past on my Ipad and the blogger app is rubbish. And to celebrate her birthday she is hosting a really great giveaway with some really great bloggers!







a Rafflecopter giveaway

The Unreal Life / 1 month "Kinda Jank" ad space
Hang on Honey / 2 months "Glass of Merlot" ad space
Cotton and Boots / Essie Nailpolishes
Simple Chronicles of Me / $10 Sephora gift card
The Skinny Student / $10 Barnes and Noble gift card
Petite Ramblings / $15 Sephora gift card

Also I am going on holiday to Cyprus in exactly one month and while I'm gone I'd like some of my lovely readers to host some guest spots for me. The theme will be "A place you love to be" and could be about your hometown, a place you've been on holiday, a day out, anything really! I need posts by the 2nd September and if you want join in either leave me a comment or send me an email (toyotasmith92@gmail.com). I also need someone to be able to tell me how to schedule the posts for when I am away

Thursday, 15 August 2013

5 Reasons I'm Single

1. I'm too honest (hence this post and maybe this whole blog)

2. I'm 99% sure I'm crazy. Talking to a colleague today about how I felt really happy but also on the verge of tears, he proceeded to tell me I was probably bi polar. I told him I would do a Britney because I'm sure I could pull that look off


3. I'm way too sarcastic. Having a heartfelt moment? Well let me ruin that with a big ole dose of sarcasm.

4. I swear like a sailor, actually I probably would make a sailor blush. I cried at my boss last week and then apologised for how many swear words I said in that crazy moment (this and the reason that I am always late is probably why I'm also a bad employee)

5. I love to exaggerate (as you can probably tell from the afore mentioned reasons!!)

And now I know why and so does everyone else, I'm considering proper online dating. I know I said never again in this post here but it's so hard to meet people! What do you think? 

Tuesday, 13 August 2013

What do you do #3

when you feel really lonely?

Ignore it and feel like crap

Unfortunately for this one I really don't have the answer. Feelings of loneliness are the most common thing that gets me down and I don't help myself because when I feel down I hide away. Things have been going on recently that have made me feel extra lonely. It is now nearly longer that I have been apart from my ex boyfriend than we were together and that makes me sad. Time is moving too quickly and at times I feel like my life is passing me by without any achievements. 

I feel like, through no fault of my own, I have lost two people that I considered close friends. Not to say that we aren't friends but at this stage I don't feel like I can trust them with my feelings (if you are one of my friends and you think this is you, it probably isn't, most of you know the story but I'm still too emotional at the moment to go into it in full detail on my little blog)

Hopefully things will get better soon and it's just a lull, in the mean time I'm trying to make myself happy, share moments with friends and family and try not to eat too much food!



If you like this post (not the sad content but the style) then check out my other "What do you do" posts here and here

Sunday, 11 August 2013

Introducing the Self Absorbed Fatty





I'm a twenty something girl who lives in the UK and I have lived in the same house ever since I was born (yes I still live with my parents, everything is too expensive and I don't earn enough money to move out yet). I am the oldest of six children and my name is actually Toyota. I am 99% sure I have heard every joke under the sun about my name but points to you if you can think of something original.

My job sounds really boring so I'm not going to explain it to you but I have wanted to be a million things under the sun. It started off as a cooker (no one explained to me that it was actually a chef) and moved onto air hostess, teacher, nurse and architect. I'm still not sure what I am doing is what I want to do for the rest of my life but it's a start. The only other job I have had is a waitress and I was pretty awful, mainly because I am very clumsy.

My favourite childhood movie was Dumbo and my mum recorded it off the tv so that I could watch it whenever I wanted it. I now have it on DVD so Disney company please don't be angry with us!!

I used to only eat spaghetti carbonara and I would have this like 5 times a week. And it wouldn't be a proper carbonara with cream and eggs etc but a crappy packet mix!! The bad news is I still eat this when I'm feeling nostalgic.

I HATE BLUEBERRIES!! Like actually hate them, maybe even a phobia of them, they remind me of eyeballs, which then reminds me of Middle School Science lessons where we dissected an eye and I passed out at the first crunch. I am also well known for saying I don't like something when I have never tried it although I'm getting much better at it.

I used to play the clarinet although I was rubbish. It took me 5 years to get to Grade 3. I don't think it helped that I used to be too shy to ask my teacher if I could go to the lessons (I am not even shy at all anymore, I have no idea how this happened) I also used to ballet dance for 13 years. I even got onto point shows which was the most difficult thing I have ever done in my life. I have done a lot of dance shows and maybe if you ask super sweetly I will show you some pictures (I am often dressed as a man but with the brightest show makeup you could imagine, I am attractive)

So this is just a little taster of me, if there is anything you want to know then just ask!!




Saturday, 10 August 2013

Beauty Review - Aussie 3 Minute Miracle Hair Conditioner


What do you do when your hair looks like utter crap and feels like straw? Complain about it and put it up all the time? Umm no? Just me? My hair has taken a lot of punishment with it being coloured, blow dried, straightened, brushed, plaited, pinned, hair sprayed and after all that my hair hasn't really been looking it's best. Anyways after all that I decided to purchase some Aussie 3 Minute Miracle Conditioner and it has been really good on my hair!! I now use this at least once a week (and more if my hair feels horrible). Still hate the colour though and I'm hoping to do something a bit different with it soon, keep your eyes peeled.

Friday, 9 August 2013

Beauty Review - Revlon Just Bitten Kissable Balm Stain


You were going to end up with a horrible picture of me wearing this lip balm but by the time I had edited out the bags under my eyes and the blemishes on my skin after a long week you couldn't even see the colour of the lip balm. The effect is also very subtle so it's difficult to photograph.

I love a lip stick but sometimes lip stick is just too much. Sometimes you want something low maintenance that just glides on and doesn't dry out your lips. Welcome this little product here. Yesterday at work I needed the full dramatic look of a red lipstick, I needed to feel good about myself and sadly that is what lipstick does for me. Today was a less in your face look and I really liked it. 

It feels great to apply, like drawing on yourself with a giant crayon and is really moisturising. The only down point for me is the smell. I think it's meant to be minty but it just smells and therefore tastes a bit medicinal. This was a present from my sister and she knows me too well.

Have you tried any of these? What do you think?

Thursday, 8 August 2013

Sharing the Blog Love

So this month I'm really trying to grow this little blog of mine (not sure it's working for me, I still only have 16 followers) and I've jumped into the world of sponsorship and guest post.

Firstly I did my first guest post for Kayli @ Kayli Wanders (which you can find here) As soon as she offered free guest spots I was there but not just because I wanted to get more readers but because I love her blog. She is such an adventurer (and too pretty, life isn't fair!) and I love reading about her life. She is a fairly new blogger but her blog is so put together it's crazy!!

I'm sponsoring Autumn @ The Unreal Life. She literally makes me laugh out loud at the stuff she writes and I sit in my little bedroom nodding along to pretty much every post she makes because it totally resonates with my life (apart from the fact she is way cooler than I am)

I'm also sponsoring Amanda @ Living in Another Language who incredibly lives in South Korea and just makes my desire to go travelling to Asia all the more prevalent (and the way life is going at the moment a break is what I need). 


So I kind of just wanted to say thanks girls for having such amazing blogs!! 



Tuesday, 6 August 2013

Living in a Soap Opera

My life feels like a plot in Eastenders at the moment and most of you probably wouldn't believe me even if I did tell you what was going. Also it's really not my story to tell especially not on the internet but let's just say my head is all over the place at the moment. So while I wish things were a little less dramatic, I'm going to tell you 3 shows I wish my life was like:

1) Heroes - I loved this show so much it was unbelievable. I want the box set of all seasons but I don't have that kind of dollar! The main reason I want my life to be like this is because I want to be Hayden Panettiere, not just like her, I want to be her and she has super powers to top it all off.


2) Downton Abbey - I want it to be acceptable to be that dressed up every day, I want to wear dresses to my ankles and wear hats and no one bat an eyelid. I want someone to pick out my clothes for me and then help me wear a crazy amount of undergarments. I want to be posh


3) CSI - I really wanted to be a Crime Scene investigator because of this show but then I actually researched it as a job and a) realised that this job doesn't really exist in the UK and b) it's not real! Dammit, career choice over. Ok so I don't really want criminals targeting me in their everyday criminal endeavors, I don't want to be killed like Warwick or kidnapped like Nick or trapped under a car like Sarah but I want to capture bad people - this also applies to my need to be Batman


I'm pretty sure I'm going crazy!!





Sunday, 4 August 2013

Junk in the Trunk

Feeling extra fat today. Reasons for this include:


  1. Got my chunky booty stuck in a rubber ring  for about 5 minutes, I laughed but slowly I was dying inside. (well technically you are always slowly dying, it's called the progression of time moron!! I ain't no Benjamin Button)
  2. My new top from Miss Selfridge makes me look more pregnant than my 32 week pregnant friend
  3. Wearing a bikini - no other explanation needed
  4. Shopping and trying on an ever so unflattering dress, in which I can see myself from every angle. No one wants to see themselves from every angle, how much fat can one pair of retinas take?!?!
  5. Standing next to my very skinny 13 year old sister in above mentioned bikini, urge to drown her was nearly unbearable
To combat this I need cake and maybe chocolate and possibly cider - definitely not to go on a diet. No way am I going to be skinny in 7 weeks before I go on holiday, let's just hope no one tries to harpoon the whale in the ocean!!

Saturday, 3 August 2013

Crafty Beggar - Ipad Case

After my extravagant purchase of an Ipad the other day, me and my sister decided that it wouldn't be complete without making my own personalised Ipad case. So without further ado check out this bad boy:


If you would like to make this or something similar let I will let you into how I made this.

You will need:
  • Plain Ipad case - I got one from Curry's that was clear plastic for £4.99
  • PVA Glue
  • Glitter - Any colour although I picked white
  • Beads - We picked up a massive bag of assorted beads for £5 for Hobbycraft
  • Hard Plastic Super Glue
First cover the case in PVA glue and go glitter crazy. In my opinion there is no such thing as too much glitter (although this opinion is probably only shared by 6 year old girls and drag queens)


After the PVA has glued slightly (approx 20 mins) you can go to town with as many beads as you wish. You can either plan them out in a pattern first and then glue them after this or you can go like me and my sister and just go crazy. If you look at the picture you can probably tell that the 2 halves look slightly different. The top half my sister stuck the beads on, very linear, you can tell there has been a thought process - bottom half me - oh look a pretty bead, oh look another pretty bead.

Now I can't usually manage kooky but this is pretty out there for me, what do you think?



Friday, 2 August 2013

Wet Tshirt Friday

You know your life has hit rock bottom when you tell your boss in front of a room of your colleagues that "You are really happy when you are wet"

Another case of engage mouth before engaging brain, cue me getting very flustered and wandering off muttering "well you know what I mean"

Let's give you the back story.

My boss, professional man in his mid thirties with 3 children, decided that it would be a really funny idea to prick in a pin in my water bottle while I was at lunch. He did it to my friend who noticed straight away, they laughed about it and I don't know why I didn't click that he would have done the same thing to me!!
Now to start off with the hole wasn't big enough to cause me any problems, the bottle was making a weird noise but I ignored it. It wasn't until I filled it up and while I was carrying it up the stairs with 4 other people's water bottles that I realised I was getting very damp! Now I thought that I had put the lid on not quite properly or something and then I clicked. I tried drinking from it and completely covered my desk and to say I was a little bit grumpy was an understatement at that time. I chucked the whole bottle in the bin completely filled with water and had a hissy fit.

Boss: "I was just trying to have some fun and make people happy"
Me: "Yeah because I'm really happy when I'm wet"



Dammit!! Why can I not think before I speak??

Let me know some of the times you wish you have wished that you could take back the words that just came from your mouth so that I don't feel quite so alone in my embarrassment. I quickly left after that comment, I'm so glad it's the weekend!